you know
when
I think
of you
I can't 
help
but feel
that I am
diving deep
into your
vast ocean
I'm plankton
some whale
scooped me up
just like Jonas
I've been
like him
nearly inhaled
yet regaled
spit out
bet now
i am
treading water
forever hoping
I won't
just sink
pray drowning
if some
eruption
astounding play
ice age
corruption
just happened
I would be
abruptly encased
in all that
sincere
severe cold
blue ice
glacier solid
more than
I have
ever been
I try 
to be
somehow liquid
even virtual
immortally fluid
I am 
still swimming
just yawning
simply dying
to reach
try you
fertile land
once again
somewhere
blessed
upon your
rocky shore
so here
I am
surely floating
sleeplessly adrift
in this
deep blue
aroused sea
if I
go under
eventually drown
would you
even see
that I tried
sometimes though
that ebbing
reciprocal tide 
is just
too strong
consider all 
this salt
victual water
I've been
soaked through
strong vinegar
weak acid
pickling my
salted blood
has asking
finally turned
kick-ass
fine or not
tricky brine
this is 
how it is
a final wave
this salty
carnal world
I have fault
gestalt memories
if could only
save us
some how
forge fraught
engraved with fault
all my guilt 
maybe love
has given up
no you are
both of us
but if only
maybe I could
finally somehow
save us
my stilted
shifting soul
geography
that is
monogamously fitful
Artemis sinking
submerged in this 
caustic salty brine
just somehow
just trying
to somehow
just survive
whether
both ours
or is it
only mine
that finally
truth sees 
some true light
let fruitless me
a finally checklist
recklessly behave
be a beggar
reside with me
my bear cave
guess checkmate
show me
enduring continuity
some fate
fitful rudimentary
elementary relief
a soulful blessing
somehow saved
from ungrateful
oceanic belief
love has
is ever
ingenuity
not just some
frantic storm
intuitive grief
raging sea
raving disbelief
those carnal
striving dreams
never let us be
I think of you
lost love
so that is what
I can't help
but always see

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so that
moon rises
somewhere
out there
argonauts traveling
human journey
around that glowing
brilliant moon
maybe dreams
planned projection
dreams seem fine
as that precious moon
speaks to us all
speech isn't always
so refined
I'm traveling
in this resilient
somehow
so very much
has changed now
yet still 
in some way
so much remains 
may be 
that very same
still it's about
true love
isn't it
every adventure
that's all about
each heartbeat
love
isn't it
maybe
it's about
God
that surreal being
still it's about
love though
God is love
so we have
been told
feel it
if it's in
your heart
if that part
of your soul
wanting to go
around that moon
fly to heaven
but not too soon
such is life
all this love
more life to live
yet pain and strife
so that
inner vision
far out
in outer space
riding that
knife edge
one slip
just a blink
that moon rises
somewhere 
out there
taikonauts and cosmonauts
different environments
aeronauts and aquanauts
even most modern
clicking internauts
modemality
router alley
yet still
brilliance rises
talk about resilience
instilling curiosity
mindful adventure
objects of desire
this human journey
time after time
measure after measure
sometimes all that
precious vibration
will be 
harmonious sometimes
even rhyme
sometimes even
oddly glorious
time after time
storied us
time after time
after time

        * * * 

 

something magical
do you ever
have those dreams
that incredible place
dream world
taking us away
into some other
magical space
I have to wonder
just what was real
those recurring themes
unreal intimate scenes
like needing a toilet
and not finding one
maybe you do 
eventually find one
but it has no door
okay friends and folk
that is velveteen
what about space
some far off planet
some surreal sun
even flying through 
that extra special place
God help us
maybe we're at sea
everything in time
just endless waves
perhaps in time
some spectral tide
even rain
those suicidal dreams
even fire
or just about to fall
catch me
in your loving arms
see me cry
maybe as I die
in lonely dreams
it's just karma
all that relative stuff
far off in some galaxy
light years away
you'll wake up 
someday when earth
isn't where you stay
something magical
about it all
having those dreams
about that magical place
so deep sleep
sleep and dream
majesty may visit you
holiness could touch you
that sacred space
you'll marvel at
tears can take us there
fear can drive us there
something about all
those magnificent dreams
something extra special
about this human race

             * * * 

 

should we
just stand still
or take
a step ahead
take one
step sideways
or take
a step back
should we
twirl around
look back
from where
we've been
maybe still
forge on
or should we
try to fly
like we
are free
or should we
turn around
drive back
into history
that is
life's mystery
just what
to do
just what
to think
just how
to turn
or twist
or shout
that is
living life
breathing being
perhaps some
reckless night
God will come
take us
by one
hand in hand
even if
we can't stand still
God will 
find us
karma's sentience
just good will
so stand up
speak will's sentence
give direction
live your dreams
seek repentance
share your schemes
speak independence

           * * * 

 

it's genius
each veiled
creedless mystery
feeding such
a brilliant
genuine delight
but maybe
this world
it's something
even demons
flushed down
some slimy
hellish drain
but still
isn't it
utterly miraculous
blowing all 
our mystified
confused minds
maybe we
somehow will
perhaps dream
our way
navigate out
of this
disingenuous mess
it's something
I must
truly confess
that simply
always seems 
completely surreal
gravity's misadventure
if only
killer's bullets
weren't real
if only
applauding bombs
didn't fall
all that
flawed history
marauding psalms
confusing us
all those
nefarious politics
leaving us
severely broken
forever pondering 
even wondering
ever wandering
isn't though
just wonderful
staunch life
where children
all that
every innocence
all that
what was
almost good
is torn
ripped apart
by those
that should
be setting
some thing
even good
an example
something instead
of cruel
bitter war
causing grief
yet instead
bloody greed
steadily mar
ready relief
double crossing
so many
needlessly die
fall bleeding
those things
that might
have been
something beautiful 
even sure
those things
that could
have been
beyond blind
mysterious ritual
loveless nothing
but victims
horrid gore
all those
loveless lies
that we
are told
all that
pitifully phony
that always
forever unfolds
what sort 
of revolution
does it
bloodywell take
to change
broken things
make things
spoken better
maybe God 
needs to
simply arrive
grab those
faithless guilty
by their
conniving throats
pluck out
their lies
evil eyes
tear out
their cold
deceitful hearts
maybe then
all that
marauding genius
would reveal
unveil those
curtained mysteries
so we
certainly all
could live
certain brilliance
so we
forever all
might give
faithfully share
our world
which just
makes sense
but then 
all those
demented despots
hiding secluded
always scheming
vainly they're
golden towers
while innocence
unfolding everything
that was
once told
as perfectly
seemingly good
is sent
unceremoniously rent 
dreaming hell
like they
all should
so in
all their
fucked up
total inhumanity
thinking they
are smart
saying they
are great
some people
do see
all their
shifty lies
causing all
shifting this
worldly strife
shoving tawdry
garish knives
into every
good soul
shoddy causing
this world
to bend
bodies bleeding
what if
virile sun
simply refused
to shine
what if
all oceans
simply turned
to brine
what would
we do
would all
even those 
brilliant leaders
all those
smartly genius
simply say
it was
our fault
couldn't be
wasn't theirs
but really
who truly
fucking cares
who doesn't
always wish
they were
grandly rich
more powerful
who doesn't
pray standing
for more
give me
hordes more
sordidly maybe
it is
all illusion
affording maybe
it is
all delusion
even certainly
it is
utter confusion
some believe
in all
yet those 
richly powerful
impertinent lies
some believe
God is
still on
their side
while God
stays away
uproariously laughing
at us
all this
roaring war
making everything
that once
was almost
even good
so dearly 
heaven pays
nothing is
every going
to be
alright again
so much
is lost
brilliance isn't
even in
within sight
that genius
left us
simply escaped
our world
when propaganda
took its
virulent hold
its deathly
cheerless grip
making innocence
light itself
self immolation
destructive fire
with all
war's grizzly
untamed desire
with all
our forgotten
happy dreams
so now
just us
drowning here
dangerously crowned
by this
choking mire

       * * * 

 

jesters silenced
FUBAR to say the least
a mutating virus
this flourishing beast
is it just us
or those gathering vultures
or is it just them
relishing another cannibal feast
or those words we speak
FUBAR parading
that truth we seek
those poems we write
jesters silenced
FUBAR parading
as enlightened right

           * * *  

 

all my grief my love
this pain and sorrow
resonating in my soul
all that sad and sorrow
my heart has come to know
if I live to see tomorrow
I hope that sad sorrow
doesn't continue
to magnify and sadly grow
what if joy and happiness
would come to ease
all this pain we've known
perhaps my heart
would find some goodness
that fleeting joy
happiness has sown
all that fragrant beauty 
we would like to know
virtually always see
if only all that fragrance
wasn't always lost
in love's costly forever's
but never forgotten love
precious joy and happiness
could still be you and me

               * * *