deepest darkest
feelings
does harmony
celebrate soul
next to beauty
feasting together
balanced
on top
perched
on the tallest mountain
what crying songs
do you sing
or are you
praying
before falling asleep
what about waking
finding your earthly life
marvelously on fire
stumble and fall again
into humble ashes
but sleep well
triumphant tonight
carnal knowledge
will be found
such a sweet float
orange crush and ice cream
cake served slowly
melting glaciers
flooding oceans
a nest of twigs and limbs
some precarious mountain ledge
welcoming
each carved sunrise
a pledge of unreserved love
craving illumination
each deep dark well
screaming for light
what if sordid life
were just a lonely dream
remotely
such stark realities
would they ever
be worth keeping
everything it seems
has its cruelties
try setting yourself free
without setting yourself
on fire
every charmed path
has its
a's b's and c's
maybe this convict life
is just conflicted math
couplets of two's and three's
or some other forceful truth
a delirious equation
adding up to something
like the summation of heaven
with sins and lies
bound and tied up
until each reveals
some profound truth
high strangeness
discovering meridians and equators
forging mystical golden rings
surging waves of cosmic reality
converging in equitable meditation
emerging under the Bodhi tree
all that remarkable gravity
learning to ingeniously fly
we shan't understand
how could we ever
grasp cave mentality
without the ribald monk
donning handspun shrouds
the vast holy sky
consecrating tyrant clouds
lastly divine seeds
inviting universal creation
bowing down and worshiping
living breathing sacred trees
Earth's affinity for trinity
fulfilling God's divine needs

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I wish
I wish
I wish
but your wishes
so different
I want
I want
I want
but your wants
so different
I wonder
I wonder
I ponder
where you are
so different
some other
establishment
some other
continent
some other
firmament
so wishes
my wishes
your wishes
all those wishes
some other ocean
some other atmosphere
some other galaxy
those wants
your wants
my wants
heaven wants
God wants
glory lost
like wishes
majesty lost
like wants
paradise lost
different oceans
and atmospheres
different
realities
like you
and like me

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I need
more
dire drugs
more
wanton blood
and screaming pain
spattered
across
each crucified page
every word
pounded in
a driving temper
hard iron nails
nailing me
to my heavy cross
I yearn
angst and hurt
all that hard
exposed
my bleeding heart
revealing
my broken soul
I search
constantly
searching
for constants
summations of truth
committed honesty
seems perilous
every glory battlefield
smeared with guts and gore
more
corruption
seems inevitable
like every burning sun
like flooding oceans
like every destructive world
all these eruptive galaxies
and molten nightmares
construction
stripping me
leaves me weeping
grips me
as I crawl
across a cheapened earth
as I tread
across every brutal sea
creation
wasting
my desert tears
discounting
my jungle fears
inflating
my volcanic words
bombastic shrouds
and earthquake thoughts
those related stars
burning in my crater eyes
pyroclastic clouds
insist on blinding me
so my instrumental days
and prison nights
consist of abject failure
insistently
this wretched existence
consistently
blistered by all this anguish
stretching me
rubbing out
perfection and honesty
all is nothing
but deceitful illusion
crooked deception
nothing
but adamant defeat
and delirious rejection
nothing
but viral emptiness
and persistent infection
vacancy
like all my prayers
and libations
like spoonfuls of bubbling heroin
intoned in shaking secrecy
crystalizing in my brain
coursing through
my constricted veins
as if living
is all kindness and decency
as if
God itself
is just insane

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it seems
things
this time
in history
is nothing less
than biblical
but then
life on earth
is always
and always
has been
biblical
nothing less
than history
penned
by the finger
fist of God
forever
a lengthy list
nothing lingers
every mystery
a detective novel
no solution
is ever easy
but then
life is always
a challenge
be it
floods
fires
hurricanes
cyclones
tornadoes
earthquakes
volcanoes
pestilence
famine
war
and more
like weather
that will
tear
your clothes off
dismember
your life
politics
that will
move boundaries
rewrite history
all those mysteries
like religion
and fanaticism
fueled by
ignorance
mismanagement
capitalism
communism
greed and disharmony
creating
so much wealth
so often
a shark frenzy
feeding
upon the masses
fleecing
peoples pockets
the rich
get richer
clinking champagne glasses
drinking luxury and sin
while
the poor
stay poor
everywhere
predators
stalking
every street
monitoring
where
people meet
a big mouthful
of mindlessness
mingling
with despotism
final authority
like corporate
dictatorship
ruling
the masses
such a vast labyrinth
of deception
and disease
this viral world
we exist in
survival
becomes
the name
of the game
but such is life
is
and always
has been
it seems
there are more
cloudy days
now
less sunshine
and fewer birds
than there were
then there are
those explosions
bombs
artillery and tanks
wasting
blasting
every thing
that had value
inflicting destruction
tearing apart
a struggling
civilized world
all this evil
offensively unfurled
some people
hide away
holes in the ground
cellars and dank basements
in hidden caves
isolated
trying
to avoid
death and pain
praying
the war
will end
others
know
many are sick
giving up
wanting to end
distress and pain
misery
is a fatal mistress
everything
suffers
everything
struggles
just to survive
to live
here
on planet earth
for what life
is truly worth
only God
knows for sure
when the world ends
and prayers
are said and sent
that's when
we discover
discreetly
depending
on what room
we are in
that the only thing
that's honestly real
is fleeting true love
that we humans
sometimes feel

          * * *

 

another orange
smothering purple
this red and blue
pastel world
blushing sky
vain sunlight
brushing over
every lofty sin
followed by lust
another selfish lie
forgive this
veil and cover
our deaf ears
shut your eyes
you should not
see nor hear
fateful destiny
faithfully
that uncertain goal
dusty history
crusted over
by mystic creation
every timeless
sacred mystery
monuments and mementos
oh blessed soul
sublime heaven and earth
a primal universal toll
criminal time eats it whole

              * * * 

 

all of us
come and go
family names
seem to disappear
those crimes
that steal away
innocent times
reluctant people
those that are
reticent tribes
there are cruel people
who are to blame
war in God's name
they too pay
such foolish ways
pave the way
some heartless future
those greatest sins
surely God will
one day come
condemn cruel
drag fools away
torment viciousness
in hell's burning sea
evil will not
always rule
surely love
and kindness
shall somehow find
some better way
a blessed fondness
a sacred place
where peace will rise
where love will stay

            * * *

 

prostrate
rubbing Khufu
carved stone
silent sarcophagus
in state
tone after tone
a statue
Horus
holy statement
echoing
reaching
into the ancient
reverberating
past
more
another world
distillate
some fourth dimension
Osirus
holding hands
magnificent Nefertiti
enlightened
Jupiter reconciling
constellate
warrior Mars
such a concert
sacrosanct power
pushing limits
sacred realms
beyond boundaries
even as uneven
bakshish is demanded
one closed space
revolving around
respectability
evolving into
reluctant change
honoured pyramidally
confessing
such remarkability
like life
unfolding
into death
waves
like light
into darkness
perfection
like Aum
into Amen

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