it's snowing
again today
all my heartbreak
this rigid pain
laying quite still
almost silent
upon that suffering
frigid snowy ground
if spring manages
to ever come
maybe I'll hear
some heartfelt song
perhaps a songbird 
will come to sing
maybe my heart
will bleed less
when that song
is readily heard
if words could lift
my wounded soul
if sound and harmony
would somehow
bring some relative
harmonic cheer
maybe then
I could be
feel less broken
just being me
still in my dreams
I dream of you
those long gone days
where we shared
mostly perfect love
those long ago
ghostly dreamy nights
where we always cared
about those brilliant
bird song mysteries
soaring and singing
chosen by heaven
from hauntingly above
but now my love
those dreams are gone
all those beautiful feelings
we constantly shared
as we lay together
refreshed and blessed
in your secret garden
holding onto precious love
secretly living there
when we were all alone
I remember that
precious perfumed air
I remember how much
we truly cared
something still remains
that magical colour
of that pastel wind
as an ocean of love
washed over our souls
as all our perfect love
told us mystical stories
about all love knows
my bones ache now
nearly as much as
my broken heart
still somehow
love's miracle words
seem lyrically spoken
even though my love
we've grown old now
remaining so distant
so heart broken
just remember love
life is mostly
dreams and art
while love remains
so damn insistent
yet we still remain
so far apart

          * * * 

one last kiss
before I say goodbye
something gone
one last look
deeply fading
into forever
where love lives
your sparkling eyes
then I'm gone
far across 
love's raging sea
maybe then
we'll wake up
on some distant shore
once again
embraced together
maybe love
will speak up
giving something
even more
one final kiss
my darling love
one last embrace
feasting with sweet love
embracing bliss
writhing together
passionately remember
together one last time 
our compassionate kisses
all our treasured passion
one last time
we let passionate love
embrace and kiss us
let us say
heartfelt goodbye
lightning love
igniting souls
inviting good
for God and us
that perfect place
where we once stood
midst blessed grace
as all things should

            * * * 

 

it's always been
so peaceful here
thus secluded
in my secret cave
something reclusive
receptive monks
those conceptual hermits
just adored
but now
that gentle peace 
lies torn
ripped and broken
most people
have never been
bombed or gored
but now
evolution is likely
some critical
virtual end
more catastrophic
unconditional revolution
seems certain
something viral
very near
now that
atomic words
nexus tweeted
texts of disrespect
openly spoken
if effectual dreams
could cure us
dismiss our hate
desist our fear
what clever scenes
could we ever dream
would true tranquility
finally find its way here
there is something
I must truly confess
this raging current
contagious fueled reality
might suddenly become
absolute and crystal clear
where is that
forgotten place
where true love 
wants and feels more 
where cruel greed
and outrageous hate
this staged myriad
of human sinful traits
should gratefully disappear
as would traceless
unconditional mass execution
and all this
tasteless fate
since we'd all
be in a place
where depressed
those poor are less
where graceful love
dreams less horror
where sentient life
will faithfully endure
still less stress
perhaps if we wore
a more cordial face
we'd find this
sordid bastion world
much more loving
even a peaceful space
a magnificent garden
a consistently wondrous
even paradise place
presuming lords and masters
barbarians won't feed upon
our disturbed human race
assuming all our growl
such remarkable hate
howling war and restless fear
doesn't consume us all
entomb all our humanity
leaving not even
finite fossils
any human evidence
of ritual continuity
just infinite extinction
even all those
respectful monks
in reflective cells
their spiritual caves
leaving an actual planet
without a virtual prayer
or any willful trace
any saving hope
of some holy grace

           * * * 

 

religious Zebediah . . . 
standing stone still . . . 
abhorring rhythm . . . 
breaking drumsticks . . . 
chewing harmony . . . 
those resonant notes . . . 
into little chits . . . 
every single thing . . . 
calling all around us . . . 
all these blasting fits . . . 
as this fanatic world . . . 
twists and turns . . . 
earth burning up . . .  
our Mother morphing . . .
leaving coarse ash . . .
grieving charcoal . . . 
those remorseful bits . . .
still yearning . . .
chillingly I hear . . . 
Babylon screaming . . . 
everything mashed up . . . 
all those vocal quips . . . 
as Jerusalem burns . . . 
churning in fear . . . 
Zebediah falling . . .
onto broken tribal knees . . . 
praying token something . . . 
articulate only . . .
what spoken God . . .
might ever hear . . . 
dare to kneel . . .
we're nearly there . . .
as reborn Babylon . . . 
this modern Zion reality. . .
condemned it burns . . .
Zebediah feeling . . .
God is dreaming . . .
we're wandering . . .
even crawling . . .
defiantly reeling . . . 
does God truly care . . .
with all this , . .
flame and thunder . . . 
all this brazen blunder . . .
innocence spurting blood . . . 
what would God . . .
simply speak . . .  
what should God . . .
openly say . . . 
or even dare . . .
that burning bush . . . 
those Holy words . . . 
this sacred place . . . 
where we are born . . . 
to live and seek . . . 
yet religious Zebediah . . .
standing silent there . . .
feeling very holy . . . 
wanting ego . . .
to behold sacred . . . 
seeking untold blessed . . .
religious Zebediah dares . . . 
while recidivist war . . . 
invites contiguous corruption . . .
all these mad hurricanes . . .
all this arresting eruption . . .
brings humanity to its knees . . .
while virulent God arrives . . . 
contesting Zebediah's prayers . . .
all this worldly disruption . . .
detesting every burning bush . . .
something David and Solomon . . .
those sorrowful holy cries . . . 
drowning in desert tears . . .
deservedly frown upon . . . 
as for peace and love . . . 
mournfully pouring down . . .
from soulful heaven's gate . . .
but revelation is too late . . . 
so relevant God . . . 
that infinite . . .
Holy finger . . . 
has touched us all . . . 
made us wonder . . . 
let us seek . . .
yet religious Zebediah . . .
something fallen . . .
everything but meek . . .
religious Zebediah . . .
incoherently unbalanced . . .
thinking he was chosen . . .
incongruently able . . .
thinking chosen . . .
meant entranced . . .
religious Zebediah . . .
imagined enlightenment . . .
where he thinks . . .
he's always been . . .
yet never . . .
truly chosen . . .
on consignment . . .
rivers of sacred . . .
universal Holy water . . .
can wash away . . .
unforgiven mortal sins . . .
religious Zebediah . . .
never close to complete . . .
unable to maintain . . .
remain upright . . .
even imagine in kind . . .
that sacramental . . .
burning bush . . .
or actual God's . . .
infinite Holy feet . . . 

          * * *

 

I hear old dogs
out howling
something desperate
such basic hunger
other raging dogs
rabid pack animals
raving into howling 
something unfavourable
not just simply starving
more virtual howling
anointed with sour
dressing obstinate greed
moreover each personal
appointed wobbly need
pointedly messing up 
more of everything
hobbling irrational serfdom
bejeweled bitches whining
their perversion defining
every foolish kingdom
disappointment stinging
dry bitch bags
unable to feed
pups and whelps
those ragged hags
vying to remain rich
defining maga help
armies of tag teams
wild howling dogs
some shot up
shut up into bleeding
others ground up
flagrant errant bombs
lover's of tombstone tanks
rolling over them
mortars speaking loudly
back and forth again
roaring unnatural language
old howling dogs 
perhaps finally understand
all this futile war
brutal feudal screams
crude war dogs fear
explosions breaking bones
drones causing moaning
oddly rattled bearings
shattering Sodom's prattle
vicious grinding gears
Gomorrah's battle mind
defeated bleeding soldiers 
wishing they were home
relishing Babushka's perogies
instead of daily feasting
on personal excrement
splattering impersonal trenches
neat piles of resentment
scattered here and there
a rapid collection
relentless aggravating
those constant grenades
more frontline perfume
navigating bitter bullets
death enhanced by gravity
mortal aroma entranced
within that battle stench
pulling life down
into shattered pits
still a smattering
of ratchet howling
old dogs licking
mad hatter wounds
while young dogs
lay there bleeding out
as wretchedness sounds
a fetching recipe
for every battle call
but those old dogs
far from frontlines
keep relatively safe
entrenched in deep bunkers
for each bleak breakfast
they drink vodka neat
speak in foreign tongues
so no sane person
understands or hears
all their demented howling
making our floundering world
shake and virtually spin
ripping out quaking hearts
each token dead body
etched by broken souls
every dreadful soldier dog
once alive and howling
screaming and scowling
at each blood red moon
those old assaulting dogs
crowned by scalding battle
their unenlightened war
presidents and generals
drowning in delight
all that gold braid offal
such degrading ballroom light
huddled masses
astounded by this gore
afraid of losing innocence
reticent because of war
still old dogs howling
aided by excreting horrid
shouting exalted evil
speaking dead meat lies
such morbid humanity
shrieking orwellian hate
all their bloody flags
tellingly draped around
war's fruitless state
howling old dogs
touting propaganda
so freaking loudly
in their hatchet fight
all their sinful execution
grinning followed closely
by their rabid bite

            * * * 

 

so we are
searching
wanting
seeking
needing
unification
so time is
leading
feeding
peaking
reaching
daunting
impeaching
unification
time must be
continuity
unity
perhaps clarity
disparagingly
testing
impunity
confessing
disparity
contesting
immunity
addressing
all of us
resisting
so in time
socially insistent
moral investment
though we feel
so far apart
without unity
all that connection
time won't renew
between me
can't be
somewhere
with you
time is that
blazing finger
of fiery God
reaching out
constructing you
with that
time line 
instructing me
perhaps within
those moments
mounting time
we all must see
love affords
amounts of time
share daring love
a graceful chord
everything given
within doubtless
astounding time
perhaps boundless
caring concord
relief of overbearing
painful stress
in lordly time
a masterful caress
something meaningful
an eventide of joy
something wonderful
surely enlightenment
a lasting peace accord
some lasting light
purity cast upon
this vast earthly mess

           * * *  

 

wandering through
everything resonating
somehow reaching
morphing universe
corporal vibration
if we think
moral libation
untold heights
top to bottom
in reverse
reach inside
down deep
keep inclined
to that
mountain steep
outlined verse
under ultimate
personal control
engage surreal
existential multi-verse
some of this
uncaged resistant denial
evidence of that
seemingly irreversible
elemental vial
that ethereal image
a personal stronghold
engaging tactful Will
a fact of able
that silver backed mirror
you won't see me
bold or fabled
or wholly catch
simply peace forever
desire enabled
a deniably sober
factual glimpse
when all
of actual this
suddenly disappears
when all of us
are lost asunder
where all of me
even all of we
are broken mirrors
shards reflecting
chaotic thunder
tokens of lost
this frightening blunder
encompassing lies
fiction from between
a tyrant's pursed lips
our salivating torturer
chanting emperor
your palisades
of war cries
their lasting cost
as this last of us
Mother Earth's
vast sacred host
so recklessly chained
being under that
theoretical fat cat
strangled and staked
under that heretical thumb
blinded and shackled
by all that
yearning raging cackle
politico chat
undermining freedom
unimaginably numb
with all that
racist fascist fear
reminding us that
hell and danger
being always mindful
remains forever truly
always very near
 

                                                   * * * 

 

despite everything
no matter
frightful time
even enlightened
or what
brilliant dreams
or when
sublimely divine
despite life
hard times
all those
righteous challenges
that have 
simply lived
managing over
given time
still everyone
first born
then lived
despite everything
then died
no matter
just how
we came
to be
or even where
whether crawling
perhaps we
treasured flying
every noble calling
still all this vying
even worldly air
we all breathe
is oddly neither
just yours
nor mine
despite what
trying views
anyone's mind
might think
despite all
this worldly
populace gain
still earthly
lordly refrain
those real problems
our modern pain
all this tragic
sustained suffering
how can we
solve enough
beyond all this
buffered rough
fairy tale magic
something that
truly matters
such precious
elementary gifts
all this air
all this water
so we might
breathe life
here we are
drinking revelation
God so willing
this earthly
blessed incarnation
breathing sacred
blessed air
drinking holy
blessed water
such precious
earthly wisdom
despite everything
our errors in judgement
this blessed garden
divine elements
relevant consummation
fulfilling ardent
spiritual elevation

          * * * 

Red Sea
parted living
liquid God
take a breath
weathered Moses
set foot
a measured quest
on that giving
ancient place
speak of dreams
lofty in that
prophetic space
people it seems
swept up
in that
immigration race
out of one
mitigating desert
into some other 
world of consuming
singing sand dunes
Moses reassured
camel backs
a desert ass
once carrying
pastoral truth
along with
that unassuming
spectred wrath
of assuming man 
those stone tablets
resume God
that burning bush
so tell me
what treasure
whose commandments
can there ever be
besides a prayer
pleasing God
let me see
pleasure my lord
let me be
desert leisure 
X into Y
enacting Z
of factual things
we actually buy
what can
everything is possible
go wrong
let me fly
but we 
all know that
spectral truth
is just a sip
of ceremonious poison
a wretched trip
drowned in sweet
Zionist vermouth
so Gaza parted
while trying Egypt 
standing silent
reported violence
just outside
their Palestine
purported door
while resigned Moses
standing there
stares out to sea
wondering what
about Jewish justice
wondering who
not just God
would next
be set free 
just like old
pondering Moses
wondering exactly
if not you
then why me

        * * * 

 

Comrade Lenin
never thought
too bad
but this
Trotsky died
deflected sad
so literal masses
reflected mad
logistic pride
up then down
more spiral
than cycle
a pathetic ride 
no brilliant up
trial knows this
we virus survivors
constantly rising
subliminal oceans
comets don't forget
seas are coming
asterisk sun visors
reality's radiance
converging incisors
surging into
radical regret
so we are
totally smoked out
how many kernels
completely burned up
seeds recently downed
drowning in record floods
swirling hurricane politics
entirety blown around
whirling in high wind
factors like slurp
detritis left overs
those tangled things
like frothing suds
conjuring mangled
like urgent sin
crazy wartime
tangible blood
mindless scuds
Comrade Lenin
your internal
migrant earthquake
changing urinal
at stake atmosphere
nations caught up
in that infernal
reverberating wake
headily still
Trotsky pissing politics
gutted and insane
would have been
fanatically worn
been readily born
yet so forlorn
so utterly torn
Comrade rice and corn
even red potatoes
get spectrum blight
which racial battle
should be political
or be heretical
profound ground
those radicals
soundly lost
muggle gangsters 
hooded thugs
racially salivating
white nights
factual cannibals
a gangland cost
sightless and wandering
rightly left
taking over
selfish self pleasuring
pondering up
hill measuring dale
recording down
covertly capturing
downfall earth
stature drying up 
evasive CO2
so what
rapid rapture
did that
insipid crown
solve cooking
resolve fire
shake life
give a grappling sigh
hanging on
by intentional hook
an eventful reaper
evolving humans
resentful re-education
by conventional book
collects gold
accumulating diamonds
by stealthy crook
pulling humanity's teeth
so this apex
glacial ice
endless mountain
solid stuff
hammering us
remodeling life
as we suffer
rough folds
those remarkably tough
oddly smooth
strangling holds
some where
please please us
please let me
finally find
appeasing mind
sacred springs
a compassionate kind
some time
before that
foretold end
each passion
that free kind
revoking fascism
needing to
invoke rational
a truly spoken one
humanistic find
defining token officiality
social sarcasm
prophetic chat
emotional tradition
micro movements
conservative worms
Stalin's comments
reconfiguring norms
incessant barking
whipping republic dogs
Edison knew it
rigging up storms
why not profit
a metered grid
some regrettably new
social manifesto
so much daring
though morally
worthless words
those mixed up
profitless messes
crutch sharing
silly cordial sentences
marking Lenin's
even Putin's
ordeal place
stamped on
Trotsky's file
they sorely knew
those immoral
wretched intentions
corruptible inventions
marked with blood
remarkable politics
spewing red hot
construing words
like lava power
rivers of molten
irrational flowing
into outer space
more over sinner
this winner
human race
wearing this
tearful whining
war face
song birds fall
colourful fish fail
displaced tigers
violently roared
such a primordial place
more than primal gore
forward into horror
such emotive places
authoritarian grace
elemental dictators
daily marvel
thumbs up
openly applaud
rich into richer
their idol God
but by and by
two thumbs down
frown upon instigators
secretly disappear
protesting mitigators
something like Trotsky
an icy situation
similar to dicey Lenin
or that
current president
which reptilian alien
resident then
lord and master
enthusiastic cheering
drinking fresh blood
securely holed up
surely hunkered down
in confounding bunkers
those elite women
those elitist men
surrounded by astounding
founded in fact
golden ballrooms
each intact buttress
a dictator's zen
each castle fortress
a murderer's den

           * * * 

 

 

blue whales
unduly starving
surely swim
truly carving
through sheer
environmental fear
mirroring depth
deep in that
wretched endless
always more
horrendously barren
daringly epic
courageous sea
low down fare
toxic atmosphere
then up high
thin sky there
quotient foreboding
so emotional
those ocean storms
every ten thousand 
temperamental years
veritable destruction
instrumental endosphere
inevitable collapse
relatively unique
verily elevated
sacredly oblique
this harried planet
lapis earth
each truly passive
lazuli blue
acid daybreak
every cruel morning
haunting lamentations
all our mourning
birds once performed
something pure
each annual migration
adversely gravitational
song bird animation
now that fitting image
life's token chorus
human immigration
openly wrung out
religion hung out
this dry song is broken
tongue in cheek singing
a red spoken rash 
dread speaking grunge
invoking incendiary
dreaded fire
evoking heat
a steady melancholy
before all this
rampant extinction
some other
fiery dying
historical doom
black rejecting white
white reflecting black
inspecting each selection
sweet tweets now
founded in bad chirps
mysterious sounds
some heartless zoom
amoral shellfish
department heads
resolutely hellish
imparting craze
idealistic relish
impartially selfish
capitalistic ways
meanwhile resolution
primary species
search for restitution
seek more revolution
speaking forest
mythical chants
matriarchal constitution
what's left
something like
bar code fusion
one self right
patriarchal institution
a far leftist blight
that idiosyncratic
self righteous bloom
actual loquacious
usual invasive
sustained right
narrow sight
wealth equals profit
harried oral activities
humanity complains
transitory tampering
supposedly everyone
has ample living 
or simple justice
a sample of plenty
more power hampering
each moral
formal cornucopia
hungry for money
all those castle towers
that towering excess
every powerful big box
taking environmental toll
volcanic candies
earthquake flowers
those big boxes
viral stores full
believing ecosystems
never truly die
consumers are born
so forever spend
belief obstructing whales
oceans chiefly starving
so sorely horrible
each toxic sea
what we see
ocean reef destruction
such social grief
emotional disorder
it makes me cry
moreover all those beings
breathing being poor
sequestered subservience
each contested 
questionable interference
investing in relinquish
story book extinction
all my sorry
feathered sisters
flying brothers
measure all your poor
lost family and friends
each worldly treasure
all that earthly beauty
remarkable plumage
glorious feathers
brilliant radiant colours
songbirds gone forever
fossilize your folly 
tie all that wounded
grumbling belly
to our wounded mother
bury ignorance
think evolution
imagine this
splendid earth
create forgiveness
unending holy
rationalize humanity 
we are resilient
but those devils
evil money suckers
relentless power
that just doesn't
give a damn
always destroying
commit to finally
what they do
what they never
ever admit
how will we
finally end
upend this
monstrous being
what we are
to all of them
they are rushing
spending fairytale
lush systemic lives
endemically everything
trending chemically
condemning glaciers
spending what we see 
this modern world
industrial modernity
reality has finally
that reverberation
finality we hear
imagine fake
everything becoming
completely insane
revealing inhuman
unraveling unfurled
just unbelievable
what they take
demanding give
but final dreams
commanding world
those starving whales
redeeming song lines
so seemingly
what gives us
our dream life
whales starving
this sudden change
reframing sunlight
rearranging atmosphere
ultimately blaming
each crazed
destructive puzzle
technological part
just going wrong
what we thought
right really is
just simply isn't
what always was
was just something
at least alright
now blending
artificial mind
human AI
robot something
artfully bending
hopeful confusion
into all that
wishful light
those reducing things
always just out of sight
I know this right
try inducing
trusted thinking now
I'm mustering wishful
this artificial reality
must artfully be
universally improved
recondition this
continental current
ever fatalistic
everything systemic
conditional moves
their rendition of justice
starving whales
additional populations
boxed up
this big box affair
guesstimating toxic ocean
so tell me
estimating sun flares
try emotionally
we all breathe
but our needy
greedy overlords
what freedom man
steely big brother
what should we do
maybe some father
universal Sun God
will finally come
change things
reform us all
still controversial
civil good
rearrange our up
out of this
awkward down
maybe toward
virtual creation
brother father
a lover God
sister mother
arriving from
some distant
insistent constellation
firmly tracing universe
embracing blistered
racing minds
face and hands
tell us truly
insistent love
something charming
warm loving arms
non-harmful things
all that very good
altruistic reasoning
always inflamed
sometimes alarmed
being ritualistic
disarmed by those
anxious starving
blue whale pods
this final swim
our current dreams
mostly dim and lost
me and thee
are cost redemption
swept far out to sea
perhaps something
more unconventional
a new arrival
one emotional god
too sublime and ghostly
but ancient Neptune
gritty Davy Jones
fitting memories
ultimately refined
post majestic Poseidon
guiding will
as well as wishing
blessing schools
those precious
pools of fish
honouring sacred
refreshing magnificence
what should be
white and blue whales
some divine charm
that would surely
be something
but where is truth
can justice ever
explore that ocean
that moral deep
a foreboding place
beneath that dark
subversive veil
every hidden truth
all our forgotten
contingent guardians
what is
forever hidden
if we were
truly clever
we would
listen more
closely to ancient
passionate stories
those lamentations
all what rational
compassion avails
love and honour
cherish humans
passionately respect
mother's starving
divine blue whales

           * * * 

 

so you are
with God now
what alien desert
which foreign jungle
blissful heaven
or is it
empty space
something ethereal
something to do
with this
human race
so you are
with God now
which mosque
what church
sentient temple
or is it
just something
a drafty cave
some holy knave
so you are
with God now
are you
still dreaming
can you
see and hear
what if 
blind silence
becomes you
within that
sacred ark
so you are
with God now
holding that
eternal hand
does creation
hold onto
sacred light
flame and spark
can you
still behold
creative beauty
truly understand
what is 
good and right
so tell me
about heaven
is it choice
or is it
even destiny
can you
ever touch
God's heavenly stars
creative leavening
maybe time
or some
blood sacrifice
would change
even rearrange
each enticing
divine scene
desert manna cake
revelation jungle
with ambrosia icing
so you are
with God now
is there something
sacred fire
holy water
or is it
relative space
dressed and undressed
in holy attire
if you would
simply tell us
what it is
where you are
caressing souls
angel choirs
addressing lords
so God now
that holy realm
is that something
self immolation
wholly impressive
ethereal embarkation
is it everything
thought as creation
word into starlight
is it one thing
or some other
refinement time
is it poetry
is some song
resonating there
some fine
graceful place
finial resonance
where bliss
where love
divine God
is all of this
some burning realm
where fiery creation
is so deep
so absolutely true
completion embraced
is all of this
some yearning self
where live and die
still somehow
is it
what we keep
light and love
completely entranced
so you are
with God now
married to that
divine romance
those sacred kisses
that holy touch
what we want
what we need
God is love
so you are
with God now
living and dying
embracing holy
you are right
with God now
that sublime creed
you are light
with God now
majestically divine
immortal seed

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here I am
bowing something
before sordid
terminal gates
some ethereal
mystical state
beneath me
cloven hooves
a Satyr's gait
unraveling logistics
I'm somewhere
within this
conceptual labyrinth 
Hall of deception
Country of defeat
surrounding completely
profundity repleat 
a vast sepulture
freshly dug
complimentary graves
profoundly in that
cemetary of scripture
resurrection at last
some autonomic 
cosmically corrected
mnemonic plan
yet correctly
still I am
contemplatively here
coptically trying 
vying for clarity
clearly hoping
to see
beyond closed gates
measuring hopes
weighing fears
whether I
or you
or is it just
raving me
to dearly wish 
or even know
how or why
composing heaven
comprimising hell
those two things
just shouldn't
lie to us
no matter 
how hard 
we try
if we can't
discard defiance
regarding ring
a tolling bell
if we fail
reframe invoke
that palling call
remain still
we lived
given yet
falling short
constantly tempted
even tempered
so self-absorbed
relentlessly hampered
trampled beneath
contemptuous greed 
strenuous corruption
all those parts
disingenuous hearts
contemptibly troubling
this needy world 
greed bubbling
blood and stubble
seeding corruption
beyond order
erupting disruption
dark nights
out of every crack
chaotic days 
trackless contests
liberally derived
hacking disorder
disrupting nights
stacking contestable
detestable sights
overly overlapping
graphic horror 
insistently trapping 
incorrigible consent
time serving
that contested state
of cease and desist
serving your own grief
a fervent groove
if not
behooving reprieve
where we are
completely sated
utterly filled 
thus we are
primal servitude 
servants in this
servile kingdom
moral strife
realizing this
our selfish
selfless action
both measurable
kerf into curvature
those geometric
geocentric transactions
not always
forever good
or eternally right
but finally 
lasting gifts
acrid God
might save us
share catheters
insert spiritual acid 
drip life
into those nasty
every gaping rift
slipping still
we did not
pray for light
because we
would not 
or we could not
honestly live life
perfectly right
outside prefecture
those iron gates
where fearfully
I am
a tearful place
an ample sum
of timely destiny
that has 
errantly come
feral time
inherently gone 
so I am
advertently weary
as of certain late
fickle questions
optimistic love 
pickled resolution
pessimistic hate
order seeking
realistic balance
a simplistic
sacred light 
measuring borders
a mystic's wisdom 
embracing divine
altruistic enlightenment
enlightened by
flaming swords
that serving
perfect peace
perfect circles
curvature encircling
respectable angles
especially encompassing
perfect squares
if only triangles
my angular heart
were always true
I wonder
if lightning love 
would be
so savage
voracious cannibals
insatiably tearing
eating away
fractured souls
depleting what was
at one time
something whole
now defeated me
scarred and wounded 
shackled at these
gates to hell
I want to think
is restitution tangible
can this institution
I nightly ponder
conjure free spirit
even remake me
I have to wonder 
what about heaven
those pure gates 
beyond fairytale
storybook dreams 
what bliss looks like
deciphering destiny
or is it futile
surely fate
this veritable
state we're in
wandering ethereal
winding roads
sometimes one path
less traveled
we sound
finding ourselves
a found summation
some sort of math
but blindly
vastly mystified 
spiritually unraveled
traveling along some
grim gravel 
leaving us 
unraveled and dim
trembling and wanting
hoping truth
nothing but
barren shelves
real love 
always trying
to find ourselves
to all of us
love's passionate hold
might be kind
tender compassionate arms
turning us around
reminding us
spinning something
long forgotten
a crested cradle
tilt and sway
a burning candle
flaming outwardly
urging us onwards
those shimmering 
shining pearly gates
burning inwardly
where finally
forging forward
we meet heaven
where all
our words
become one
only thought
where soulful
revelation cries
recite heartfelt
invoke and prayer
some sacred leavening
peel back
healing everything
repealing years
enlightened relief
from all those
terrifying fears
reveal something
iconic parchment 
revel anxiously
within those
onion layers
dispel love's
careless lies
fix life's
mistaken failures
compel waves
redirecting shadows
conjuring divinity
spells and magic
ruling gravity
true news
real refreshment
healing wounds
letting humanity
revealing soul
duly knowing
groundfall truth
molding profound lives
behold sound love
alive and well
compassion is
truly fashionable
a caring God
through passion
a rational God 
being here
or being there
almighty God
something to be
omni sighted
forever present
simply clever
every where
God's providence
got evidence
be somewhere
because here we are
for some odd paternal
internal reason
check maternal
affectionate living
truly care
yet crazed
this strange
germinating season
cultivating thought 
a sensuous scene
dreaming affirmation
something about
realizing information
eternal life
really clearly
truly very
nearly assuming
real love
those deep
soulful feelings
we do hold
so truly dear
really something
filled with compassion
voracious love
consuming irrational
something wanted
passionate wants
always really needing
ways of deep
entrancing embrace
unruly sacred fire
sparks truly conjoined
roiling and boiling
knowing holy water
that divine ark
universe rejoicing
embracing factual light
actually modulating
recoiling oceans
continents of toil
all those invited
harmonic voices
still here I am
with third eye sight
embracing vibration
so revelation it seems
is choice and right

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thinking back
those years
I wish
beyond fears
I think
dripping tears
me wishing
I could
go back
pick up 
those pieces
my heart
left behind
longing me
along that
pathetic road
interject checks
be longing
jungle balance
camouflaged somewhere
juggling some
end of
that line
what chances
what fate
perhaps destiny
oblivious rebate
what if
relatable DNA
could speak
obvious debate
what message
courageous mode
what if
outrageous God
does evolution
evolved resolve
even revolution
debating destiny
winding roads
dating eternity
where bits
fateful pieces
profound profundity
you tied
to me
lying strewn
beneath detritus
leaf mould
roadside debris
perhaps if
I found
my self
I'd know
that truth
is timeless
that action
to what 
internal reaction
we feel
to what
we see
stumbling along
through trying 
fumbling life
trying not
to trip
or fail
quick flip
when I 
think back
to that
life long
broken track
so long
to bits
those pieces
my parts
those broken
abstract tokens
so thinking
years back
I see
my self
so life 
well spoken
though compassion
my heart
thinking back
had broken
nothing gray
just white
or black
everything ballistic
exit right
enter left
that gift
hind sight
romantically mystic
thinking back
sentimentally right
lost love
forgotten dreams
broken lives
thinking back
retrievable memories
are so
conceivably contrite

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