here I am
bowing something
before sordid
terminal gates
some ethereal
mystical state
beneath me
cloven hooves
a Satyr's gait
unraveling logistics
I'm somewhere
within this
conceptual labyrinth 
Hall of deception
Country of defeat
surrounding completely
profundity repleat 
a vast sepulture
freshly dug
complimentary graves
profoundly in that
cemetary of scripture
resurrection at last
some autonomic 
cosmically corrected
mnemonic plan
yet correctly
still I am
contemplatively here
coptically trying 
vying for clarity
clearly hoping
to see
beyond closed gates
measuring hopes
weighing fears
whether I
or you
or is it just
raving me
to dearly wish 
or even know
how or why
composing heaven
comprimising hell
those two things
just shouldn't
lie to us
no matter 
how hard 
we try
if we can't
discard defiance
regarding ring
a tolling bell
if we fail
reframe invoke
that palling call
remain still
we lived
given yet
falling short
constantly tempted
even tempered
so self-absorbed
relentlessly hampered
trampled beneath
contemptuous greed 
strenuous corruption
all those parts
disingenuous hearts
contemptibly troubling
this needy world 
greed bubbling
blood and stubble
seeding corruption
beyond order
erupting disruption
dark nights
out of every crack
chaotic days 
trackless contests
liberally derived
hacking disorder
disrupting nights
stacking contestable
detestable sights
overly overlapping
graphic horror 
insistently trapping 
incorrigible consent
time serving
that contested state
of cease and desist
serving your own grief
a fervent groove
if not
behooving reprieve
where we are
completely sated
utterly filled 
thus we are
primal servitude 
servants in this
servile kingdom
moral strife
realizing this
our selfish
selfless action
both measurable
kerf into curvature
those geometric
geocentric transactions
not always
forever good
or eternally right
but finally 
lasting gifts
acrid God
might save us
share catheters
insert spiritual acid 
drip life
into those nasty
every gaping rift
slipping still
we did not
pray for light
because we
would not 
or we could not
honestly live life
perfectly right
outside prefecture
those iron gates
where fearfully
I am
a tearful place
an ample sum
of timely destiny
that has 
errantly come
feral time
inherently gone 
so I am
advertently weary
as of certain late
fickle questions
optimistic love 
pickled resolution
pessimistic hate
order seeking
realistic balance
a simplistic
sacred light 
measuring borders
a mystic's wisdom 
embracing divine
altruistic enlightenment
enlightened by
flaming swords
that serving
perfect peace
perfect circles
curvature encircling
respectable angles
especially encompassing
perfect squares
if only triangles
my angular heart
were always true
I wonder
if lightning love 
would be
so savage
voracious cannibals
insatiably tearing
eating away
fractured souls
depleting what was
at one time
something whole
now defeated me
scarred and wounded 
shackled at these
gates to hell
I want to think
is restitution tangible
can this institution
I nightly ponder
conjure free spirit
even remake me
I have to wonder 
what about heaven
those pure gates 
beyond fairytale
storybook dreams 
what bliss looks like
deciphering destiny
or is it futile
surely fate
this veritable
state we're in
wandering ethereal
winding roads
sometimes one path
less traveled
we sound
finding ourselves
a found summation
some sort of math
but blindly
vastly mystified 
spiritually unraveled
traveling along some
grim gravel 
leaving us 
unraveled and dim
trembling and wanting
hoping truth
nothing but
barren shelves
real love 
always trying
to find ourselves
to all of us
love's passionate hold
might be kind
tender compassionate arms
turning us around
reminding us
spinning something
long forgotten
a crested cradle
tilt and sway
a burning candle
flaming outwardly
urging us onwards
those shimmering 
shining pearly gates
burning inwardly
where finally
forging forward
we meet heaven
where all
our words
become one
only thought
where soulful
revelation cries
recite heartfelt
invoke and prayer
some sacred leavening
peel back
healing everything
repealing years
enlightened relief
from all those
terrifying fears
reveal something
iconic parchment 
revel anxiously
within those
onion layers
dispel love's
careless lies
fix life's
mistaken failures
compel waves
redirecting shadows
conjuring divinity
spells and magic
ruling gravity
true news
real refreshment
healing wounds
letting humanity
revealing soul
duly knowing
groundfall truth
molding profound lives
behold sound love
alive and well
compassion is
truly fashionable
a caring God
through passion
a rational God 
being here
or being there
almighty God
something to be
omni sighted
forever present
simply clever
every where
God's providence
got evidence
be somewhere
because here we are
for some odd paternal
internal reason
check maternal
affectionate living
truly care
yet crazed
this strange
germinating season
cultivating thought 
a sensuous scene
dreaming affirmation
something about
realizing information
eternal life
really clearly
truly very
nearly assuming
real love
those deep
soulful feelings
we do hold
so truly dear
really something
filled with compassion
voracious love
consuming irrational
something wanted
passionate wants
always really needing
ways of deep
entrancing embrace
unruly sacred fire
sparks truly conjoined
roiling and boiling
knowing holy water
that divine ark
universe rejoicing
embracing factual light
actually modulating
recoiling oceans
continents of toil
all those invited
harmonic voices
still here I am
with third eye sight
embracing vibration
so revelation it seems
is choice and right

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