watch me
cut myself
deeper and deeper
all love's difficult words
carving old wounds
letting me bleed
more and more
those scarred emotions
echoing crying sounds
try watching me
slice myself
wide open
letting out
this streaming sad
letting in
errant rays of glad
what if
feral love came
to enchant my razor
would some
magical enhancement
dull my crazy
maybe I'm just lazy
not wanting
to do love's work
maybe I'm living in a daze
finding love daunting
so why does love
keep on haunting me
could I borrow
your emotional sword
something bloody long
long enough
to pierce my ruddy soul
cut away
love's blazing kiss
so razor sharp
acute enough
to slice through
gristle and bone
I know
I need
to atone
yet love
wants me
to be alone
so I can
cut myself
excise all
love's hurt
revise love's
constant pain
watch me
while I drown
floundering
deep in love
if only
I had known
maybe understood
love's bitter disdain
those hurtful words
love soundly spoke
maybe if grounded love
had been more grand
I wouldn't have
quit love
given up
that hard refrain
tried to cut love
out of my
bleeding heart
sever love forever
out of my
sad and broken brain

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