when I rose
sweet perfume
rose scent
I wondered
august morning
where was I
was I here
or was I there
when I turned
around myself
I still wasn't
here or there
I saw my storied
fringe reflection
spinning like a top
glory beneath 
my understory
moral feet
all that spinning
mounting instigation
I surely
mostly saw
my introspective life
doubtless incomplete
what a challenge
tempting reality
some attempted
even objective
fair play
odd relativity
that blazing sun
scorching day
assortment done
me stepping 
into my
other faze
my porch swing
dream daze
more mystery
more haze
literally reshaping
my already
distorted gaze
all that earnest
or so it seemed
valiant deflection
inflection here
my inventive soul
more inception there
more sweet desire
both right here
as well as
what is left
over there
a redemptive breath
forever managing
changing life
life transpires
as challenging
Brian's ghost
called out to me
from his dark
somewhere
within that
cold stark
molding wall
Brian's ghost
caught in
between
here and there
somewhere
fraught by challenges
Brian's ghost
warning me
voluntary armitage
momentary calling
watch out
crushing commentary
sedentary things
are about to fall
watch out
rapid rushing
river's deep
still you
muster bravely
cross it
giving everything
without ever
dross failing
never falling
crossing over
cleverly delivered
severely reliving
mortal spinning
sensual diversity
mental temper
mustering patience
a blustery portal
Brian's ghost reframing
trust and temperance
sort of lustful
toasting watching
while waiting
once I'm across
a new beginning
expecting transformation
thinking of deliverance
beyond self determination
perhaps finally
eternal immolation
as I spin
like a fiery top
watching
that crazy blaze
beneath my chastened feet
observing
a living furnace
clearly here
there about
resurrection
current reflection
I'm neither 
here nor there
still revelry 
I'm obvious 
still somewhere
with all that
carnal ferocity
furious spinning
I see 
I'm both here
as well as there
Brian's ghost
calling out
from his
chosen wall
I mostly hear 
something else
but I can't tell
if that sound
is introspection
an entrancing vibe
harmony with revelation
revealing something
I'm still here
repealing nothing
spinning there 
feeling nothing
doing nothing
being nothing
completely
as nothing
but still
nothing at all
funny somehow
breathing here
while spinning
right there
catching Brian's ghost
watching all
his nightly introspection
Brian's ghost
sighing revelation
dying to disappear
back into Brian
within that
neverland wall
spectral chat
a forever mummy 
Brian's clever shell
sent me here
Brian's ghost 
something about 
curious introspection
even delirious elevation
something revolutionary
Brian's ghost
still clearly there
spirit reincarnation
Brian's ghostly intention
lingering here
whispering evolution
Brian's revelation
ghostly elevating words
in my revelating ear

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