I think
I'm hanging on
too tight
to some
changeless reflection
catching myself
all that wretched
deceptive inception
what if
I'm lingering now
watching myself
through all that
invested sight
all that time
I've spent alone
all those dreams
so sweet and caring
have left me
so it seems
I'm incomplete
completely naked
simply staring
oddly standing
at that ocean edge
even when I try
I'm in motion
to find my
true bearing
I'm so unsure
of how close
I'm standing
to some chosen
prophetic ledge
if I finally wake
take a step back
without falling
perhaps then
my dearest friend
I'll finally see
some pure light
I'll finally find
I already know
that those
distant dreams 
were right
rightly reminiscent
I should
have stayed
but now
I should
let go
of all that 
my uncertain
loveless yearning
if I finally wake
without burning
let my dreams
take me
closer to that
receptive edge
I'll take that step
into that
vast unknown
exceptional space
I'll accept my fall
yet I'll try to fly
if true love
conceptually calls
even if
blue love 
might find me
I somehow
deep down
insightfully know
cruel love
would burn
an infinite hole
right through
my finite mind
sear commitment
a precious hole
into my
admittedly
yearning soul
please love
void of disguise
catch me
let my eyes
be open
as I fall
truly open
this heart
my mind
to true love's
surely unblurred
receptive call
if I had
more time
but time
seems hurried
yet strangely
I keep
hanging on
well mainly
vainly hoping
I'll descend
that danger cliff
I'll look for you
search in both
plainly ascendant
loving heaven
forage assuredly
some perfumed dell
all that way
down into
some precipitous gorge
some marked
unsure dark
infamous well
lift heaven's veil
all that tryptych way
a folding swell
moulding into
remarkably unforgiving
unleavened hell

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