you know
when
I think
of you
I can't 
help
but feel
that I am
diving deep
into your
vast ocean
I'm plankton
some whale
scooped me up
just like Jonas
I've been
like him
nearly inhaled
yet regaled
spit out
bet now
i am
treading water
forever hoping
I won't
just sink
pray drowning
if some
eruption
astounding play
ice age
corruption
just happened
I would be
abruptly encased
in all that
sincere
severe cold
blue ice
glacier solid
more than
I have
ever been
I try 
to be
somehow liquid
even virtual
immortally fluid
I am 
still swimming
just yawning
simply dying
to reach
try you
fertile land
once again
somewhere
blessed
upon your
rocky shore
so here
I am
surely floating
sleeplessly adrift
in this
deep blue
aroused sea
if I
go under
eventually drown
would you
even see
that I tried
sometimes though
that ebbing
reciprocal tide 
is just
too strong
consider all 
this salt
victual water
I've been
soaked through
strong vinegar
weak acid
pickling my
salted blood
has asking
finally turned
kick-ass
fine or not
tricky brine
this is 
how it is
a final wave
this salty
carnal world
I have fault
gestalt memories
if could only
save us
some how
forge fraught
engraved with fault
all my guilt 
maybe love
has given up
no you are
both of us
but if only
maybe I could
finally somehow
save us
my stilted
shifting soul
geography
that is
monogamously fitful
Artemis sinking
submerged in this 
caustic salty brine
just somehow
just trying
to somehow
just survive
whether
both ours
or is it
only mine
that finally
truth sees 
some true light
let fruitless me
a finally checklist
recklessly behave
be a beggar
reside with me
my bear cave
guess checkmate
show me
enduring continuity
some fate
fitful rudimentary
elementary relief
a soulful blessing
somehow saved
from ungrateful
oceanic belief
love has
is ever
ingenuity
not just some
frantic storm
intuitive grief
raging sea
raving disbelief
those carnal
striving dreams
never let us be
I think of you
lost love
so that is what
I can't help
but always see

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