I snuggled in closer
Just to get your heady scent
I struggled to be closer
Just to feel your soft skin
I hung on harder
Just to know you better
I didn't want to let go
Just because I loved you so
I held you closer
Just because of your tears
I kept you in my dreams
Just because of your beautiful hair
I crept into your private life
Just because your smile asked for attention
I swept my hopes into the street
Just because you were only being sweet
Like water
I washed over you
Just because I loved you
Like water
You ran away from me
Just because you didn't love me
This water cycle
Like life
Just because of love

it would
be a shame
not to see
new york
city
in this covid-19
spring
pandemic confusion
listing uneasily
viral fusion
two years
increasingly
at least
contusions
fast track
gearing up
a deeper crack
a looming past
recesses
clones of doom
past economic gloom
recession
fast forward
ten years
another unfamiliar room
succession
red algae blooms
procession
into the acid future
acrid reading
world economy
endless bleeding
needless
arresting depression
it would be a shame
not to see
depressing
new york
in the coming
faulty
failing
futile
spring

Remember me
That rough collection
Living on the edge
Between night and day
Perched on that narrow ledge
A place I so often stayed
Where the world forgot me
When the frigid moon stared down
Wearing such a lucid frown
Calling me by some lurid name
Expounding o'er the rigid day
Framing curious night
Lunar forethought and old rhymes
Rhythms instituting a universal time
Rememb'ring imperative lines
Embellished with superlative signs
Remember the regent moon
Urging an argent pledge
Lest darkness surge ahead
Merge sideways
Purge prancing
Emerge dancing
Romancing the sacred Crane
What creative light
Refuse to shine
Sane reckoning
E'en though on its own
Illuminated renown
Beyond uneven darkness
Sovereign morn beckons
Beneath a starlit crown

Haiku de Mayo

Mayo de cinco
New life brings us joy and hope
Spring into summer


Our hearts bleed again
Those  memories we treasure
When that's all that's left


Starry universe
From darkness into the light
So death comes knocking


I'm on fire now
Burning up in this place
Self immolation


Rising sea levels
Waves washing over the earth
Water shapes the world


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Haiku Monday

Corona virus
Asking us all to repent
Forgiving our sins


Old age like prison
Contagion runs rampant
Those places of death


First stage ends first wave
Second stage with second wave
Corona - 19


A mickey by noon
Alcohol softens things up
Kerouac died drunk


Creeping on my knees
Longing to touch the robe's hem
Sacred will permit

April Musings

April 3, 2018

I can't read those moments of silence very well.
Is it a smile? or a frown?


April 10th, 2018

My 64th birthday.
She doesn't love me,
I feel that now,
She doesn't want me,
I know that now,
She doesn't need me,
I see that now.


April 19, 2018

It turns out my mistress is the desert wind,
Hot and dry,
Mummifying hopeless love,
Burying lost dreams and cities,
A place where thirst is never quenched.


April 20, 2018

Eventually,
You are so far away,
It is hard to remember you.


April 22, 2018

If somebody doesn't want you,
You can't make them want you,
You can digest those poems I recited for you,
You can decide whether you want to ever see or speak with me again,
But there is no sugar in this recipe,
Besides it comes mixed with undying love,
I hope you think of me someday,
I know I'll think of you,
Perhaps you'll dream of me,
I know I'll dream of you,
Love,
I wish you could,
Fall in love with me,
I wish you would,
Give my selfish love a chance,
I'm just too far out of reach,
Maybe you just don't love me anymore,
There are no second chances,
When this moment is over,
Time is gone forever,
We'll never get this chance again,
Part of me says you want me,
Part of me says I'm crazy,
Part of me thinks you love me,
Part of me thinks you don't give a damn,
My heart tells me love avoids me,
My heart tells me I'm not worthy,
Logic tells me love will never come true,
Logically you never really found me,
Law of attraction and you,
I've got to stop caring,
This distraction I'm mired in,
Fuck,
This funk that is failing,
Did you ever wonder,
About my love,
Such a pitiful yarn,
I failed love and love failed me,
Such a pitiful joke,
Choking on chewed hunks of love,
Hope drowns in that sea of chunky gravy,
You can't love me,
Love can't save me,
Still,
Love,
That commonly hurtful story,
All pity and no glory,
i don't know how to get you out of my system,
I don't know how to stop loving you,
I don't know how to stop wanting you,
Why can't I imagine a happy God,
Am I that much of a sinner.

Such grand paranoia
Putting up tall fences
Fear sold as freedom
Digging deep ditches
Sleeping with one eye open
Carving out steeply walled trenches
All the replete security in the world
Tsunamis will still wash away our present fears
Earthquakes shall smash away our pleasant world
Seeking more high ground
Speaking about hope
Those hopes that we don't crash
Dreams that prayers have found
Shiny steel razor wire
Slicing the planet into theirs and ours
What truth can be found in lies
Land mines defend borders
All those lions and tigers
Hungry demons prowl the earth
Tall ramparts and deeper moats
Thicker walls depending on our sickest dreams
All this creeping paranoia
So many nightmares it seems
Where will we be
When the sun rises
On the new world
Perhaps a better world
Perchance one with more difficult surprises